Adoption Anxiety

After receiving our number on the waiting list, we have heard nothing else.  Some days I feel very anxious for this process to be over and for us to have our daughter. I often wonder who is taking care of her? Who is hugging her and telling her how special she is? What kind of life is she living right now? It seems like such a slow process while all the while my daughter is living in not great circumstances.  Last night I was feeling this way so I began looking for blogs of other people who are also adopting in Honduras – just to read of someone who understands. It took quite a bit of looking because there are so few adoptions that are done here. In 2011 only 11 kids were adopted by US citizens (the numbers aren’t out for 2012.) Anyway, I read of people who have been on the waiting list for over a year, of people who have been processing their paperwork for over two years and are still not on the waiting list, I read of people who were approved before us and are way higher on the waiting list than us. Did any of this make me feel less ready for this process to be over?  Umm, NO… but it did help me to see how very blessed we have been. Our timetable looks something like this:

October: begin collecting the paperwork needed

November: turned all of the paperwork in to the lawyer and the Foreign Affairs office.

December: IHNFA ask for one piece of paperwork to be redone (many people have to have lots of their paperwork redone)

January: approved and put on the waiting list at #18 (this is nothing short of a miracle in that many people have higher numbers and have been waiting longer or have been waiting up to two years to be approved while we were approved in less than a month.)

The committee that matches kids to families did not meet in February but they are meeting twice in March. Hopefully we will get our new number on the waiting list …and our daughter soon.