The Countdown

In just ONE MONTH, I will be beginning a new chapter of my life and will move to Honduras!!! It’s hard to believe that it is so close! I’m also in my final week at the police department that I’ve been working at for the past three years. It’s bittersweet for sure. I’ve been spending the spare time that I have at work preparing for the new position I will be taking on in Honduras by learning about QuickBooks. I have never done anything similar to this outside of tracking what money I spend, so this will be entirely new. There has been a ton of new information thrown at me through this training and still so much that I don’t know about the ministry and its inner-workings. I don’t know about you, but I’ve always hated being the new person at a job and not knowing how to do anything.

When I first worked for the police department on campus, I was very overwhelmed by the amount of information that I had to take in. I was new to the school so I didn’t know where anything was or what departments we had. I didn’t know anything about dispatching or how to handle emergency calls. There is a particular weight and responsibility in knowing that you are a potential life-line to somebody else, and that freaked me out. I let myself freak out before I even began training (very typical of me). A particular person we all worked under as a department was very intimidating and detail-oriented too, so that kept me on my toes. Overall, I felt inadequate for the job and nearly quit within the first few weeks. I had encouraging friends who told me to hang in there until I got a grasp on things. I am so glad that I did and thankful that I waited on the Lord before jumping off ship. This department has become a huge part of my awesome college experience. There was so much growth that needed to take place in my life through this job. I could go through all the many other experiences that God has used to humble me and to have me place my trust in Him, but you get the gist.

Now with certain tasks that I will be taking on in Honduras, I’m not near as reluctant to try new things. The fear of failure doesn’t grip me near as tightly as it used to. What I’ve learned through all of my failings and discomfort in trying new things is that the more vulnerable and honest I am, the easier it is to grow. I spent so much energy before trying to maintain a composed and polished appearance inside and outside of the workplace. It’s really hard to grow when you keep yourself contained in what is familiar and what you can control. The good thing about this new chapter is that I am familiar with Honduras and familiar with the ministry. So even with not understanding all the mechanics of this organization, I at least feel safe in knowing that I will be able to grow there. Failings and all, I know that it’s for a purpose. Knowing that God has called me there helps me to remember that He didn’t send me there because I know everything about it. Overall, I’m just ready to be there and to work for a ministry that is growing. I want the Gospel to be made known to more and more people. This opportunity is beyond exciting even with all of the unknown variables.

I wanted to write to also share about how fundraising has been going. I’m blown away by how quickly these funds have come in. I will soon be close to 75% funded, which is incredible! If you are reading, please join me in prayer for the rest of these funds to come in. Either way, I am flying out in a month!

Thank you for reading, for your prayers, and for your support.

Email: mccaylafleming@gmail.com

Published July 19, 2017