We ask for a lot of things in our lifetime. Sometimes we are told yes, sometimes no, and sometimes, maybe later. As a parent, I have responded in these ways more times than I can count, and I often think nothing of it. But, when it comes to my spiritual life and prayer life, these answers take on a whole new meaning.
God ALWAYS answers prayer. While I know and trust this truth wholeheartedly, I am also faced with the truth that sometimes His answer is no, and sometimes it is wait. That is even difficult to type.
We often hear Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” As believers, we love this verse, but what happens when we feel like we are in the will of the Lord and our heart is set on something that is of Him, but it doesn’t happen? Maybe it is a no, and maybe it is a wait, but nonetheless, we cannot see when and/or how it may come to fruition.
For me, this is just a difficult thing. I am a mathematician at heart, so in my thought process, if you have all the factors for the equation and plug them in correctly, you will get the correct answer. Unfortunately for me, life is not a math equation, and things do not always work out as planned. So as I pray and call out to God, I am faced with the truth that, at least for now, the answer is no. How do I deal with that? How do I work that out in my brain?
Well, for now, I am still working on that, but I am constantly reminded of God’s faithfulness. I may not understand the current why of the things that are happening, but I can trust the Lord. He has always been faithful, and I know that He knows what is best, and He has a plan, which I do not understand. I have to remember that He sees the entire picture, not just the piece that I am currently fixed on.
One of my favorite songs that has helped me through difficult seasons of life is “Goodness of God.” The song says, “All my life you have been faithful, all my life you have been so, so good.” Even in my darkest and most frustrating times, I have to remember this truth. The song goes on to tell of how God has led me through fires, stayed close during the darkest nights, and how He is so so good.
We cannot throw up our hands and act like a child when we don’t get our way, even though it is sometimes tempting, but we have to keep our focus on the truth. We serve a good God. We serve the God that tells us in Jeremiah 29:11, “I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future.”
His Word is truth, and even in the times when I don’t understand why things are happening as they are, I must trust and believe in His truth. After all, His goodness is running after me, I just need to wait on His perfect will and His perfect timing.